So... I started a blog. Not this one. The one I started and gave up on. I discovered I'm good at starting things... and then giving up on them. The fact that I started a blog and quit blogging shortly afterward did not reveal this fault in my character to me. I've been aware of this particular flaw for quite some time. I'm a planner, an organizer, a list maker. I LOVE MAKING LISTS. But I'm not good at following through...
I have determined that needs to change. I want to be a finisher. I want to be able at the end of my life to say, "I have fought the good fight, I have FINISHED the race, I have kept the faith." (2 Timothy 4:7) You see, I know that this particular weakness of mine doesn't only affect my ability to follow through with my desire to be organized and finish the projects that I start. It also impacts the way God is able to use me. There have been countless times that God has revealed to me a shortcoming in my life or some goal He wants me to strive toward, and I eagerly attack it. I want to change. But, two weeks down the road, I've entirely forgotten what He was asking of me and quit fighting for the best things in life.
But, now I'm expecting. A baby, that is. Inside of me a new wee little life is being formed. And I will be its mommy. It will look up to me for guidance. My shortcomings will impact this little one like no one else. I want to be the best mommy that I can be. I want to be the best version of me that I can be. I want our wee one to see Jesus in me. Jesus was a finisher. He finished what He came to earth to do. I, too, must finish what I've been put on earth to do. Whether it be something as simple as the meal planning I want to do, or some grand plan to reach out to my neighbors. Let me tell you, that is no easy task for an introvert like me. It involves talking to people I don't know...
This blog is going to be tangible evidence that I am not a quitter. I may not have much to say. No one may ever care to read my scribbles. That isn't important. What is important, is that I promised someone I would write a blog. I am determined to finish what I start.
